Here's to Uncharted Territory

so i have fallen victim to blogging. basically its an outlet for me let everything and anything out in the open for complete and utter strangers to read and think "i'm so following this guy.." or "he's absolutely wrong!" or other strange comments/responses.

let's see, let me begin this moment by explaining who i am and what i am about.
ah, forget that, you can read most of that in my profile.
lets get to the gist. so, what's up with the title, you say? well great question.

Donkey:
1 a domesticated animal with long ears related to the horse but smaller.
2 a stupid person

But the best thing i found was this description: patient, but stubborn.

Story of my life.

I am a Christian, which I will most likely blog about in later posts. One thing I have struggled with in my life is patience. Who wants to wait for anything in a world that operates at supersonic speed? But I'm not talking about waiting for hamburgers or the newest NetFlix, I'm talking about life.
I guess the struggle began when I realized I wasn't going to meet my dream in college. Dream? To have a woman by my side, hand in hand, and to start the family life. Boy, was that dream shot down, b/c I didn't even date in college! No time to! I was constantly working to pay rent, bills, other toys and all, but never had time to meet other single women around me. I spent months thinking why God would keep me away from a relationship with a woman, why he would take something that would mean the WORLD to me? If I were to believe He is almighty and powerful and giving God, why hasn't He given me someone to be with?

Of course, like any person would, I went to friends for advice. But the same answers came out of different mouths: "She's out there for you! You just have to be patient!" "You're the perfect guy! Some lady will be very lucky to have you someday!" "Stop looking! She'll come when you least expect it" "I like you, Paolo, but only as a good friend..."
Well, that last one is the answer i got when i tried to rush His plan. But the others were all the same to me: that i had to just sit and wait. My thought: WHAT THE HECK? Why wait? I don't want to wait, I'm flippin' getting old over here! My heart is ready (i think) and i'm spiritually mature (i think) and mature in general (i hope)... why keep something that i'm prepared for? (i think)... my mind, my heart was moving 200MPH in the wrong direction! what the crap, Lord?

Then God slapped me in the face (not literally).

"Be still, and know that I am God" ~Psalm 46:10

Whoa. Seriously? What was wrong with me...

Where was my mind? Obviously, not in the right place. My immature mind took over and wanted something that, ultimately, doesn't belong to me in the first place. Why try to reason with God? Why mess with God's ultimate plan? And ultimately, why honor and praise a relationship that hasn't come ABOVE THE ONE RELATIONSHIP THAT MATTERS THE MOST? I think God was speaking to me, teaching me patience by not giving me what I so desired. He told me "Just STOP, stop thinking about everything, and refocus on ME." That my life no longer reflected the glory of His life and His love and kingdom. That I needed to become faithful in Him before I can faithfully commit to another. What a slap! It was like I was trying to replace one relationship with another. Bad Donkey. Stubborn Donkey.

Patient Donkey?

So from that point on, I gave everything to Him. No longer did I occupy my mind with who I should be dating, what to do in life, where the rent money would come from, or anything else that burdened my heart. I gave everything up so that my mind would be fully committed to the Lord, b/c i truly and wholeheartedly believe that He will provide everything. Life had a different beat to it. I saw everything as hand picked and placed by my Lord, that everything and everyone deserved praise and love. My life went from a lonely, eeyore-like bore with thoughts of never getting out of the dark ditch I was in... to the glorious light, renewed spirit, and loving relationship and fellowship with the Lord and His people.

This would lead me to great ministries, a great church, great friends and fellowship, and His answer to my commitment, patience, and prayers.